For those you know me, you know that I’m very open to change. Changing things doesn’t scare me; I wasn’t scared about going to high school or changing churches. However, as I approach graduation day and start to contemplate life beyond high school a little bit, the thought of graduating scares me. I’ll be honest; this past Sunday I was thinking about some last minute senior things I had to finish, and I almost started bust out crying in church because I was scared of the fact that I would be on my own in less than three months.
From day one when I decided on what college I wanted to attend, I was ready to go with no fear in sight. However, for some reason this past Sunday the fear of moving away just hit me and I really wanted to cry, but I held back my emotions. I mean I walked out the house to go to church almost started crying. Now, I don’t know what scared me the most. I don’t if I was more scared of moving five hours away from home, becoming an adult, or both. I sat through the entire Sunday morning service trying t keep myself from crying even while singing in the choir.
I have never been bombarded with such emotions as I had been on Sunday. I don’t know, maybe it was the work of the Lord because as I sat listening to the sermon my fear began to cease, and when I left all the fear and emotions I had were gone. The funny thing is that the sermon wasn’t even about fear or emotions; it was about God being a family man and how a Godly family should be structured.
Later on Sunday, I began to think and I was reminded of Romans 8:28, and even now as I write this, I know that I can’t even begin to understand why that sermon caused my fear to go away, but I know and I rest assured that the fear and emotions happened on the same day that sermon did because of what Romans 8:28 says which is, “And we know that all things work together for the good of those who love God, who are called according to his purpose,”
Maybe this past Sunday was God’s way of saying to get over your emotions now because the great things I have in store for you won’t give you time to get over them later. It also could have because I am the type of person to do new things without thinking of my emotions, and maybe He was trying to get me to realize that I did have fear in me. In the end, I don’t know the reason why I was bombarded with fear and emotions like I was on Sunday and how a sermon about something completely different soothed my soul; I do know it was all for a purpose.
Going from high school to a college five hours away is still a scary thought, and I know I will conquer it, but now I know that I will conquer this scary transition of life even faster.